Sigh...
I am not good with lack of control. Normally to maintain control (or at least a semblance of control) I create alternate plans to control for the unexpected. Right now I have very little control over major thing in my life, so what can I control when I'm at home after work before Alan and Caleb get home... the most delicious combination ever: graham crackers, marshmallows, and nutella. Can I just mention that I think that nutella is incredible. Not sure why it took so long to come to America.
I just thought of another thing I can control... my reaction to the lack of control. Maybe I should try something besides emotional eating, crumbling to the floor, frantically searching for something to buy on craigslist (because of course I NEED that high chair 2 days before we go to Italy), or spending too much time being non-productive on the internet and intentionally breaking my Lent fast.
Okay, another realization. I can't really control my reaction. I need Jesus.
"The way we live our days, is the way we live our lives."
May your kingdom come in my life.
3.20.2011
Day 79- Anniversary, catch up and bbbbusy
Alan and I celebrated our 5 year anniversary on Friday! I can't believe we've been married for 5 years! Here is a recap of the past few years:
The wedding- March 18th, 2006
Summer of 2007
Summer of 2007
Fall 2008
Spring 2009
Summer 2009
Summer 2010
September 2010
Christmas 2010
We've been able to experience so many amazing things together. I'm a better person because of Alan and I'm so thankful for him in my life. I can't wait to spend the next 50 years with him!!!!
Here's a cute one of Caleb in his crib
Here is my attempt to get a "5 month" shot like I have for the last few months. It turned out to be impossible, as you can see:
Caleb, you have grown so much over the past month and are such a joy in my life. You woke me up a lot last night to eat, but this morning, you giggled and giggled as I got you ready for the day. I've been getting glimpses of the fact that you is going to grow up to be a boy and man. I'm satisfied for you to stay all baby at this point. You've grown to be about 16 pounds, eat between 6-8 times a day. You go to bed around 6:30 or 7 and get up around 7 or 8. You started eating solids regularly this month. So far you've had rice cereal, oatmeal, pears, carrots, and green beans. You're getting better and better at swallowing the food :). You've really started to sit with a little help. You love your bath and are still chewing on everything you can get your hands on. One of these days you are going to sprout those teeth. I love you so much and can't believe that you are my son. I'm so lucky!
The wedding- March 18th, 2006
Summer of 2007
Summer of 2007
Fall 2008
Spring 2009
Summer 2009
Summer 2010
September 2010
Christmas 2010
We've been able to experience so many amazing things together. I'm a better person because of Alan and I'm so thankful for him in my life. I can't wait to spend the next 50 years with him!!!!Fast forward: Long overdue 5 month post:
Here's a cute one of Caleb in his crib
Here is my attempt to get a "5 month" shot like I have for the last few months. It turned out to be impossible, as you can see:
Caleb, you have grown so much over the past month and are such a joy in my life. You woke me up a lot last night to eat, but this morning, you giggled and giggled as I got you ready for the day. I've been getting glimpses of the fact that you is going to grow up to be a boy and man. I'm satisfied for you to stay all baby at this point. You've grown to be about 16 pounds, eat between 6-8 times a day. You go to bed around 6:30 or 7 and get up around 7 or 8. You started eating solids regularly this month. So far you've had rice cereal, oatmeal, pears, carrots, and green beans. You're getting better and better at swallowing the food :). You've really started to sit with a little help. You love your bath and are still chewing on everything you can get your hands on. One of these days you are going to sprout those teeth. I love you so much and can't believe that you are my son. I'm so lucky!Finally: Pray for us because we are extremely busy. Work is a bit overwhelming right now with tons and tons of meetings/reports each week. We've been going like crazy trying to get our house ready to go on the market (hopefully this weekend). We're heading to Italy on Saturday (do not think I'm complaining about this- it's just that we may not have timed this perfectly :) oops!) There are also so many details that need to fall into place for our move. I just realized today that we will be moving to KC in exactly 2 months. That's craziness, people. We sang a song at church today that I've never really thought too much about, but it really spoke to my heart.
"Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord, wait upon the Lord, wait upon the Lord. Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord, wait upon the Lord, wait upon the Lord. Our God, you reign forever. Our hope, our strong deliverer. You are the everlasting God, the everlasting God. You do not faint, you won't grow weary. You're the defender of the weak, you comfort those in need, you lift us up on wings like eagles."
Although I feel tired and weary, I have a God who does not grow weary. He promises to be my strength and portion. Thank you, Jesus for being all that I need!
(sorry about the marathon post- I may not post again til we return from Italy- and it will already be April by then!!!)
3.08.2011
Day 67- This view...
... is what is currently keeping me going.
In the midst of finding out that we will lose massive amounts of money on our house (and still trying to get it ready to sell), being swamped at work, having a sick baby, trying to find a job in KC, tyring to find God's will in all these things, I am currently finding comfort that I will be sitting on a balcony in about 3 weeks looking at this view. I need a little rest for my soul and I hope to find it in Italy. Just a break from reality for a few days. I know it's a little material and egocentric, but I think I need a vacation.
EDIT: Sorry, this post seems really negative. True, I am a bit overwhelmed right now, but actually, life is sweet. I'm falling more and more in love with Caleb each day. He is SO darling. My husband is no longer working nights, so I'm enjoying having the evenings with him. God is teaching me many things and I feel him with me often. I'm very thankful for all of the good things in my life. I know the things that seem overwhelming now will seem silly in the future as I look back.
In the midst of finding out that we will lose massive amounts of money on our house (and still trying to get it ready to sell), being swamped at work, having a sick baby, trying to find a job in KC, tyring to find God's will in all these things, I am currently finding comfort that I will be sitting on a balcony in about 3 weeks looking at this view. I need a little rest for my soul and I hope to find it in Italy. Just a break from reality for a few days. I know it's a little material and egocentric, but I think I need a vacation.EDIT: Sorry, this post seems really negative. True, I am a bit overwhelmed right now, but actually, life is sweet. I'm falling more and more in love with Caleb each day. He is SO darling. My husband is no longer working nights, so I'm enjoying having the evenings with him. God is teaching me many things and I feel him with me often. I'm very thankful for all of the good things in my life. I know the things that seem overwhelming now will seem silly in the future as I look back.
3.04.2011
Day 62- Catch up
It's time to play a little catch up... Caleb is now 5 months old (I'll do a real 5 month post soon with a belated 5 month picture). This is a video of the 2nd time he ate rice cereal. He's getting better and better. He started with rice cereal, now he does oatmeal. We're going to be adventurous and make pear puree to try this weekend.
Here are some more pics:
Stacy came up with mom to visit from Siloam when we went house shopping in KC last weekend. It was SO good to see her! Can't wait to live a mere 3.5 hours away!
Me, Gran, and Caleb
How sweet!
LOVE the dollar bins at Target! Look at the fun dishes that I found. A tray for a dollar and 2 bowls for a dollar! Now we have expanded the rocket theme to eating as well!
First try with the sippy cup. Not so much interested in drinking out of it as playing with it. Hmmm... probably should have put something besides water in it. We'll try again in a couple weeks.
How sweet!
LOVE the dollar bins at Target! Look at the fun dishes that I found. A tray for a dollar and 2 bowls for a dollar! Now we have expanded the rocket theme to eating as well!
First try with the sippy cup. Not so much interested in drinking out of it as playing with it. Hmmm... probably should have put something besides water in it. We'll try again in a couple weeks.
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