I am not good with lack of control. Normally to maintain control (or at least a semblance of control) I create alternate plans to control for the unexpected. Right now I have very little control over major thing in my life, so what can I control when I'm at home after work before Alan and Caleb get home... the most delicious combination ever: graham crackers, marshmallows, and nutella. Can I just mention that I think that nutella is incredible. Not sure why it took so long to come to America.
I just thought of another thing I can control... my reaction to the lack of control. Maybe I should try something besides emotional eating, crumbling to the floor, frantically searching for something to buy on craigslist (because of course I NEED that high chair 2 days before we go to Italy), or spending too much time being non-productive on the internet and intentionally breaking my Lent fast.
Okay, another realization. I can't really control my reaction. I need Jesus.
"The way we live our days, is the way we live our lives."
May your kingdom come in my life.
The wedding- March 18th, 2006 Summer of 2007
Here's a cute one of Caleb in his crib
In the midst of finding out that we will lose massive amounts of money on our house (and still trying to get it ready to sell), being swamped at work, having a sick baby, trying to find a job in KC, tyring to find God's will in all these things, I am currently finding comfort that I will be sitting on a balcony in about 3 weeks looking at this view. I need a little rest for my soul and I hope to find it in Italy. Just a break from reality for a few days. I know it's a little material and egocentric, but I think I need a vacation.
EDIT: Sorry, this post seems really negative. True, I am a bit overwhelmed right now, but actually, life is sweet. I'm falling more and more in love with Caleb each day. He is SO darling. My husband is no longer working nights, so I'm enjoying having the evenings with him. God is teaching me many things and I feel him with me often. I'm very thankful for all of the good things in my life. I know the things that seem overwhelming now will seem silly in the future as I look back.
It's time to play a little catch up... Caleb is now 5 months old (I'll do a real 5 month post soon with a belated 5 month picture). This is a video of the 2nd time he ate rice cereal. He's getting better and better. He started with rice cereal, now he does oatmeal. We're going to be adventurous and make pear puree to try this weekend.
Here are some more pics:
Stacy came up with mom to visit from Siloam when we went house shopping in KC last weekend. It was SO good to see her! Can't wait to live a mere 3.5 hours away!
LOVE the dollar bins at Target! Look at the fun dishes that I found. A tray for a dollar and 2 bowls for a dollar! Now we have expanded the rocket theme to eating as well!
First try with the sippy cup. Not so much interested in drinking out of it as playing with it. Hmmm... probably should have put something besides water in it. We'll try again in a couple weeks.